Inner Flow...

I'm going to try a different approach. 

To life, to love of myself and of others... but also to how I share. 

I'm not really here to think so much... It's clear to me as it can cause me anxiety and frustration, sometimes a headache... But my awareness of - this undefined head & ajna of mine... Well, theres a lot that flows through - and some of it I'm sure does not matter, while other thoughts may. I'm also not here to judge that, so in honor of my 3rd lines, let's fuck around, as they say, and find out what may become of this, if anything... shall we?

Right now, in this very now moment I am experiencing a sense of ...anticipation. Excitement. Mixed with a gentle touch of contentment and liberation. This sensation of calm interlaced with the vast wildnes of the mystery, the unknown. Is it fear and trepidation? I often do see how excitement of the unknown can resemble fear... It's like giddiness, mixed with a lot of unanswered questions. Nervousness, laced with a sense of wonder. Anxiety can also be curiosity. Yeah, if that makes any sense. I finf that the more I just let it ride and not think about it, the answer just comes... all is revealed in time. It's in the trusting of how my body feels about this or that, that I get there, or not. And when I get there is not determined by anything I can control. Mind can not dictate when, anothers authority can not make it appear, nothing comes from pushing an agenda. It's quite a practice of patience and, yeah, trust. 

I see the transitions at play with in the collective, like this separation occurring... like a slow and long drawn out peeling off of an old bandaid. Does it hurt? Only when we let ourselves be pushed around, or pulled into anothers trip, and what is love? "Baby dont hurt me," No really, what is love ... is it a surrender to choicelessness, a submission? It may be agonizing, or it can be a dance in and of itself. That's where I'm drawn more and more to deeply listening to inner authority, it truly can save us all. But if we're not solid in our unique decision making process, wow, it can be like a twister. When we let the opinions of others sway us, finding ourselves judging where we "think" we should be, according to what, says whom? Or and we discerning porperly,how it "should" be done? how this "should" go down, etc. Ugh. Opinions, Judgements... Sun & Earth in 17/18 polarity, there you are... can we watch, and not judge it? Stay centered in our unique awareness? The challenge, at times!

I can see myself, and others, moving away from old ways of resolving conflicts. Adults, relearning how to communicate in order to clearly and authentically relate, versus the old tactics that - whether they worked or not - were engrained in us as children, often unconsciously via our conditioning. And the layers there... Recognition of whats not working, and trying out new things, approaches, resolution strategies - in order to better serve each individuals needs within unions, bargains, business ventures, etc. The work IS in the awareness. 

It's like a call to grow the fuck up, on a whole other level. Ok, Pluto conjunct the moon today sends waves and billows of wind - it's like this subtle, fantasmic pressure to experience our fantasies? Define them? Live them out, or let them go? Do you find yourself weeding out what works, how does it work, what does it require in order to work, perhaps only to reveal where we are still blinded? The veils upon us with Venus and Neptune, lifted, or blurred? Are we feeling our exposure to the elements even further? Our innocence, while simultaneously inserting its universal coolness of love - can leave us either chasing for that arousing shock, or a bit... disappointed? Expecting a more personal experience? Can you spread this sensational awareness past what is in front of you? -  Do you see the interconnectedness of all things? Are you able to find what love really is, interlacing itself within it all?

This sounds like such a deep call for tantric awareness, is what my Jupiter senses within my body. And with Jupiter in Gemini, gate 35, there is no better time to practice mantras, meditation, breath work and the art of observation.

Saturn, conjunct the North Node, demanding self discipline in how we view, or judge society, how we process big emotions. To be a "support to those in times of crisis but only when unavoidable"... LOL Yeah...

Are we learning that hermitting is sometimes healthier for the mind and spirit, as the solution to further conflicts, turbulence, acceptance? Compassion is a muscle that requires excercising and strengthening. We may find our circles getting smaller, taking more alone time to get clear on what it is we feel about this or that. Compassion is easier to achieve and maintain with the correct amount of distance... For some that may mean taking a large step back. For others, it could mean retreating for moments of solitude to receive their clarity, and return to the tribe. Let this happen and let it be what it is. It's not personal. It never is... though we can feel it deeply in our vehicle at times.

The opportunity to experience a steady flow of compassionate speaking and listening is available to us, if we're open to experiment with it. What disappoints, redirects. What triggers, opens a new door, or another level of the same story... this house of stories, these walls of mirrors... can you see the 1 and only within each face and name and experience? Do you recognise your Divinity yet? 

All these questions, and really none of it matters, it's simply me, expressing what I "see"... hoping you feel a little more seen, a little less alone. What a beautiful canvas of scenery it is. What a masterpiece of love, you are. Despite what "they may say", shine. Shine this light you've diligently uncovered, let go of what remains as a prison - be it psycholigically, emotionally, physically, does it imprison your spirit? Let it go... Trust in your inner flow. 

What is precision but ones opinion of what any given thing "should" look like? Precision, without self awareness, is simply perfecting someone elses directions. This is all fine and dandy in a cooking class, or any class for that matter, but in life? In the real world, where we are all striving to be ourselves and live out our uniqueness - Precision is a self awareness and self love so devoted to its truth that life has no choice but to deliver according to the masterful art of ones Mechanics. May you remember this love that is there within you, and experience your signature...

I feel myself letting go, whilst simultaneously being pulled along an invisible thread, a center?.. This tether between the void and the mundane. Don’t mind me, as I’ll just be getting weirder and weirder... and somehow it’s all so exciting, while filled entirely of mystery... and in some way, I’m held in that. In some way, it’s ok. It’s gotta be ok. I mean, you have to be ok with You. You know? Being - and ok with the Self that Is. Really ok...

Until next time,

Katy