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“When you look at this mystical way, what you see is that once you get beyond the bridge everything becomes individual. And this leads us to the theme of mutation and magic.When you look at a Human Design BodyGraph, there is nothing more common than the potential of individuality. There are three individual circuits: integration, the individual circuit, and the centering circuit.Individuality as circuitry touches every single center in the system. It’s connected to all of the awarenesses. Individuality is the bedrock upon which the BodyGraph is built.Individuality carries with it a very specific chemistry. It is the chemistry of mutation. So when you go to the format energy of the individual process, you go to the 3/60 between the Root and the Sacral Center and you get to the channel of Mutation, the very heart and soul of what the creative process is about. The creative process is about the sensitivity to non-homogenized frequencies. In other words, it is a built-in sensitivity to what is not part of the common plane.What makes individuality so difficult is that it does not conform to the standards that have been established the moment mutation is evident, because mutation creates distinct difference.More than that, mutation is a very complex process because in order for it to be viable in a human, the way that it operates is that it can only operate chemically. And when we are looking at the individual of any kind, any individual activation, what we’re looking at is a chemistry that is mutative. It doesn’t mean it’s mutating all the time. And it’s also something to understand about all aspects of individuality, that it represents two concepts: planing, this is the way in which the individual emotional wave works, the individual emotional wave planes; it floats along in a very narrow band with the potential of being able to peak either upwards into giddiness or downwards into depression. So one thing to understand about the chemistry is that it brings a kind of ‘evening out’.The other thing that the chemistry brings is uncertainty. Without mutation there is no knowing. And all individuality, no matter where you find it in the BodyGraph, is related to knowing. It’s all about the knowing process, as anything in the logic system or anything in the abstract system is about logic or abstract. That knowing is there as a potential all over the body, and it’s a potential to know what’s new. It is that potential to mutate.So there is this uncertainty because there is this planing. And while you’re planing there is nothing new, nothing at all; only the potential that it may be there. And then there are these moments in which that frequency shifts, it peaks one way or another. And as a chemistry that can be recognized in another human being as moods.Individuality by its very nature is moody. It’s moody because this is the actual quality of the chemistry. And the moodiness is there in the plane, no matter what. The moodiness is in the uncertainty, no matter what. But in those moments of peaking, the moods shift. Again, they can shift upwards or they can shift downwards.It’s a fascinating thing about individual moodiness. The best way to describe the chemistry is to describe it as melancholy, or sadness. It is something that every creative person truly understands that sadness, or at least the aura of sadness, that quality of sadness, that all individuality recognises that sadness is a call to the creative process. If there is no creative process to be called to, then it’s a fall into the embrace of the chemistry as depression. And melancholy as depression, if it becomes the plane itself, is something that can last a whole lifetime.Yet, everything about individuality is that it is this very potential for mutation that provides us with the potential to stay alive and continue to flourish as a species. In other words, it is the way in which we avoid stasis and destruction, the way in which we keep on moving forward. And of course, physically there is a whole history of mutation in humanity that is part of what we call our larger evolutionary process. And there have been extraordinary mutations all along the line, beginning with standing erect and the development of the neo-cortex, the dropping of the larynx, and endless numbers of mutations that have taken place along the way, that have opened up the potential of our quality of self-reflected consciousness.But there’s something else: creativity is truly receptivity. This is one of the great ironies. I am so aware of that as a writer of music.Or, if I would phrase that correctly, I’m aware of that as somebody who is written by music because it does not originate in me.It is simply something that moves through and filters out that way, and I can be very romantic and call it the muse. But the reality is that it’s a particular serendipity at a particular moment, when certain information moving through at that moment becomes music. It has nothing to do with creativity in the way in which it’s used in the common domain: that is a creative person because they are acting out creativity. It is in fact an incredible receptivity.When I look at art, for example, for me the great artist is the most receptive, this special gift of being able to filter the muse. This is what we all are as agents. We are agents, endowed with our crystals of consciousness filtering the neutrino stream. And through the aspect within the matrix that we call individuality is the possibility to filter the neutrino stream, so that it comes out either as a creative act or as a mystical experience.”<figure id="figure-xi58504lcpm6tlowwr"><img id="xi58504lcpm6tlowwr" src="https://cdn.durable.co/covers/4dbvV7Vl0p9cicpweYAMnrSzahO55m22LFZcOv7CviePZ7JzgU5lHw6Jb1fiBlpa.jpg" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-lg md:rounded-xl lg:rounded-2xl" style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: 45% 25%;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="16:9" data-caption="" data-positionX="45%" data-positionY="25%" data-fullWidth="false"/></figure>

The Mystical Way...

I was about 12 or 13 when I really started to get in a lot of trouble. I mean I can’t remember a phase in my life I wasn’t getting in trouble, but this story is about what I am remembering that I would do with my alone time, and not loose my …dignity? Sanity? I had a lot of it, alone time. I mean, I was often sent to my room as punishment. I can sort of laugh about that now, seeing that it was actually a gift in a way, but to my young mind it felt like a punishment, like I was bad and burdensome, and no one wanted to be around me.I would do something, or not do something, and get sent to my room. Automatic punishment. Grounded for what feels like most of my childhood, I’d play music and sing, dress up, play with my toys, color, whatever.Then when being sent to my room wasn’t punishment enough, those mediums were also taken away. No more radio, no more toys… honestly taking away my radio was the meanest of all. I loved music and music moved me. I used to fall asleep listening to night time talk shows and “the love hour”, whatever they called that. So with no radio I really felt alone. It was just me, my bed, some books. I read a lot of RL Stein lol the dreams I’d have… I’ll share one with you, another time, but i remember it having a profound impact on my waking, it changed my life. I could read one of those RL Stein books in a couple days. Sometimes I’d stay up til wee hours to finish it in one night. Anyway…After they caught on to me reading under my blankets with a flashlight, that would get confiscated. No more reading, unless it was my scriptures. What was left for me to do in my room alone, well it was just me, a mirror behind my door, and my imagination.I’d make up games in my room with myself. I’d find ways to still play, somehow. One of the most entertaining of my innovations to play was making faces at myself in the mirror. I’d pretend I was this singer or that movie star. I could make myself laugh, or cry. I could be whatever I wanted to be, in the mirror. &nbsp;This developed into a relationship with myself in a way that I saw myself as my best friend… and sometimes my worst enemy. When others didn’t accept me, I had a hard time accepting myself. And when I was accepted, I congratulated myself, I celebrated, in the mirror. I got really comfortable, and uncomfortable with my reflection. Some days I feel like I look like a haggard old winch. Others, a gliding goddess on silvery clouds…It’s all me. I am this and that. As are you… we are a binary, after all. We all have darkness and light, expansive qualities, and painstaking limitations. Often times in my life I’ve felt this body itself is my limitation. Sometimes it’s the expansive quality of my mind that wreaks havoc in my life, without proper awareness to the boundaries, our exaltations can also be our detriments. Meeting limitations is something I’m quite familiar with.Something that Human Design gave me was the proper boundaries to these qualities within myself, or not self, and in the world at large. I sure do forget at times just where those boundaries are, but it’s why I’ve stuck to this system for so long. And that in itself is somewhat of a miracle lol ask anyone who’s known me for any remarkable length of time and they’ll agree. I’ve bounced around and delved into so many jobs, so many modalities. And this one, well it has consistently just made practical sense.That doesn’t mean I always like it, but it is consistent. In a world where I’ve have had very little consistency, it’s been reliable, and real. Experimenting with HD, it has proven itself to me, time and time again. And what an interesting thing to see for an ego being… anyway…Maybe my childhood was riddled with loneliness, or aloneness, a bit of both, and that has pained me much of my life. But I can see, through this awareness how maybe that was actually a gift in some weird way. All my life I’ve known ‘it’s just you and me, babe’, talking to myself in the mirror. And it’s true!We were born alone (most of us, not talking to the twins out there lol) but even in that, we all are so incredibly different, we have our own unique filters, and we will die with those differences, never ever will we be like anyone else, even if we tried, so we might as well stop trying to be anything but that, and live out who we were born to be, yeah? This has been a concept I found easy to embrace, until I’m met with resistance, yet again… bumping into boundaries left and right, yes it has been quite often. Sometimes shocking me. And to deal with that, I’ll share a story but for another time. I’ve got lots of stories.I was born weird, and that’s not a problem for me anymore. I love myself… despite all odds. And when I’m not living myself (meant loving, but living as myself, too) I can see where I didn’t pay close enough attention, and remember. And laugh! Because I can surly be quite a clown sometimes… we really are stupid before and stupid after.How can you love yourself a little more today? How can we rewrite that old story to align with the healthier, more embodied, Real You? Where do you need support to amalgamate, acclimate, integrate and alchemize? I’m here for that!P.S. my bathroom counters do not look like that lol but hey even if it did… I would (still) love myself.<figure id="figure-9y5gcxdm1um6tltg7m"><img id="9y5gcxdm1um6tltg7m" src="https://cdn.durable.co/covers/0axm3y5c37lcgAdrWumZcZhFZ7MUkXFgoUExOh9Fw267RXR97X6TvPbLHbW6XRW1.jpg" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-lg md:rounded-xl lg:rounded-2xl" style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: center center;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="16:9" data-caption="" data-positionX="undefined" data-positionY="undefined" data-fullWidth="false"/></figure>

Self Love - 1 of many examples...

North Node in Gate 25 line 6, South Node Gate 46 line 6, until December 15th - do you see it? How quickly we went from judging others, to perhaps judging ourselves? Hmm the remnants of the nodes slowly dissipating, to see a new view.The gate of the Spirit of the Self“The centering of a being depends on the quality of their innocence. The innocence is tested in the 'fire' of competitive energy. Despite the outward appearances the true competition is whether the Self can maintain its innocence despite circumstances.This is the gate of the Spiritual Warrior, the Shaman / Priestess. It is one of the four gates of the Cross of the Vessel, a gate of Love. Innocence is the gate of the Blood. It is the potential to love existence without discrimination. A flower can be loved as profoundly as a human.This quality of love is often projected as cool or cold. It is neither. The mystical potential of this love is transcendent and universal. The Spirit is always being tested. This is the gate of scars, of the potential of being wounded.When the Warrior / Fool leaps into the void, it is Innocence that must land on its feet. The Spirit can be broken but triumph and survival enrich the spirit and result in the wonder of being.”THE PERFECTION OF ACTION THROUGH UNCONTRIVED AND SPONTANEOUS NATURE.“Line 6 - IgnoranceFalse innocence betrayed by actions. &nbsp;02° 56' 15" - &nbsp; 03° 52' 30"&nbsp; The least mild of a negative position, where inappropriate action is censured. The loss of innocence through inappropriate action.&nbsp; Constant inappropriate and destabilizing actions whose very counter-productiveness strips away the facade of innocence. Constant inappropriate action in times of challenges that can break the spirit.”Gate 46“This gate is part of the Cross of the Vessel. It is a gate of Love, the love of the body and the flesh.This is the gate of Serendipity, of recognizing that beginning with one's own body, the body as Temple, that one is always in the right place, at the right time. This can be a gate of discovery and Good Fortune. It is all dependent on the Determination of the Self.The Design of 'Succeeding where other people fail' is also inversely a Design of 'Failing where other people succeed.'It is through this channel that the Abstract process can find its promise or chaos. The determination to accept that one is in the right place is deeply spiritual. It is surrender to the cycle and in that surrender is the potential for discovery.It is also clear, that unless the abstract being can accept and commit themselves to the cyclic nature of their lives, their bodies will begin to fail under the stress of constant crisis, disappointment and upheaval.”GOOD FORTUNE THAT MAY BE PERCEIVED AS THE RESULT OF SERENDIPITY BUT DERIVES FROM EFFORT AND DEDICATION.“Line 6 - Integrity&nbsp; 02° 56' 15" - &nbsp; 03° 52' 30"&nbsp; The wisdom to secure one's identity through careful consideration of the restrictive potential of commitments. The determination to say no to restrictive commitments.&nbsp; Deceiving oneself and others by overextending one's resources and eventually being in the position of having to break promises. A drive for success that will not say no, and will end up breaking promises.”- Rave iChingMy P Mercury is 25.3, “Sensibility”. The recognition that innocent action does not in itself guarantee success.Gate 25 Line 3 - Sensibility &nbsp; 00° 07' 30" - &nbsp; 01° 03' 45"The recognition that innocent action does not in itself guarantee success. &nbsp; The power of the ego to withstand failure and still maintain its nature. The power of the spirit to withstand failure and shock.&nbsp; The potential loss of innocence through misfortune that in the extreme can manifest from crime to suicide. The potential loss of spirit through failure or shock.”I can honestly say I’ve never experienced the desire to off myself with thoughts of suicide. I’ve definitely wanted to get off this crazy ride, but I’d never take my own life. Maybe that will change over time, I don’t think so, but never say never I suppose. I share this today because even though we have the 6th line in action with the nodes, some may be experiencing the 3rd line martyrdom of seeing that trial and error, and with the body south node 46, seeing themselves as the victim. It’s the victimhood of the mind, as a perpetrator of pain and suffering. The qualities that can arrive when mind is not an ally. We have to be deliberate in catching where our minds fuck with us. Have to, in order to put the mind in its place. To see what we are here to see. When we finally see it, life can be pretty funny!My P Jupiter 46.6, this integrity has been a life long process of awareness. Watching my vehicle as it gives me signs, clues to what works and doesn’t work. What does it mean to me to be in integrity with my body? I’m thankful for the PHS aspect of HD for what it confirmed of how to treat this body. One of the themes I see with this 6th line is really to lighten up. Lighten up your body with healthy foods for you, and movement. Movement literally helps the stuck get unstuck. We have got to learn to laugh at ourselves more. It certainly can be a trial and error process. Which leads me to share…Line 3 in Gate 46 says“Projection &nbsp; 00° 07' 30" - &nbsp; 01° 03' 45"&nbsp; A practical approach to good fortune, that maintains the same patterns and attitudes that brought success and does not get sidetracked by indulging in further expectations. The determination to stay with what brings success.&nbsp; A tendency through projection to treat a potential future as the present, leading to unjustified egoism and the loss of momentum and support. The determination to treat a projected success as a reality.”Boy can I see how I’ve been a silly little goose in the past. The power of ego to boost itself up, to create an expectation of others, to make a mountain out of a mole hill. When caught up in the emotional waves of others, or of the collective. It can really do a number on our psyches.It’s best we check in with the body to see what it needs, instead of expecting anyone else to provide support, start with something small. It is a gift to be simple. And of course if you find those allies that are supportive, love them hard. Create reciprocal exchanges. That’s how’s I’ve seen it anyway. That’s integrity.With Jupiter in Gemini and Neptune in Pisces, we have an opportunity to transition, or see transitions in others of either creating more integrity within themselves, or not. I wonder how many people are feeling the defeat and loss of innocence, and how that will manifest with this emotional wave. My hope is that by providing the awareness perhaps it will help someone see how the program can condition us in such a way, to focus on such areas of our lives, and perhaps find the innocence something less painful, more bearable…Innocence can’t be lost, though we can surely forget and lose our way. And the way is so unique to each of us. To me, innocence is such a beautiful way to look at life and come to acceptance. In contemplating this very thing I’m reminded of a Ra quote, I’ll share that below. May we find the love and compassion for ourselves and others, and treat our bodies as temples, a little more gently perhaps. Be safe and take care out there.&nbsp; &nbsp; ~ Katy“Come to your own darkness, and accept the mechanical. Linger in light, but the mechanical demands a strategy. It is not a struggle, but you have to accept both, not just one.Accept being in the Maia fully, and living your type seamlessly. You’ll get the normal chaos of human life, plus this deep, deep quiet, which is the recognition of the mechanical and your own helplessness in that.The mechanical is at peace in the Maia and okay with what happens. After all, it’s not up to us; it never will be. Letting go is not a philosophy, but takes seven years. You have to go through the pain, as the Maia is dense. By working your way through it and grasp it deeply, then you can jump out of all of that.Get to the point where you are saying, “Yes, there are these two domains – the movie here and the truth of the mechanics there. I have no problem with those two living with each other.”Life goes on, and nothing changes, as you still your make your choices in the Maia. If you enter the Maia process correctly, live in the Maia correctly, then it won’t constantly occupy you. By accepting these two ways, these two forms, you see that you create one and experience the other. In that acceptance, one truly awakens.In your own way you’re your own process, you will get to that point, and get to see the state of awareness. So take out the garbage. We think it’s so special, but really it’s not a privilege or a right. If you move correctly, you get the reward. No choice in that.- Ra Uru Hu“Crossing your eyes, while it might cause temporary eye strain, does not cause any permanent damage to your vision and your eyes will naturally return to their normal position once you stop doing it; essentially, it's just exercising your eye muscles and is not harmful in moderation” - Google &nbsp;<figure id="figure-ic6p49oz4rm6tlhc6t"><img id="ic6p49oz4rm6tlhc6t" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/10FnXrdv0y35qmSAxWmWh1r7cJV6bgHbyapWMyYx4PjW7MIdjM9Cy0QJf13luvx6.jpg" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-lg md:rounded-xl lg:rounded-2xl" style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: center center;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="16:9" data-caption="" data-positionX="undefined" data-positionY="undefined" data-fullWidth="false"/></figure>

Nodes in 25/46

Taste. I am a natural bitch. What can I say… ok, so it’s not what comes out all the time, but it can be, and when it has it has been shocking, even to myself at times.&nbsp; Ambitious, you could say. I’ve always been ambitious, and partners that couldn’t meet or match my ambition were not allowed. Or when the ambition fizzled into complacency or atrophy, I would surely get turned off. I like a hard working man. I like a man that puts his career as an important part of his life and even partially identifies himself with his work. I realize the foolishness in some of that. Expectations, projections, contempt; I’ve thrown them as much as I’ve also received them. I could be a real bitch.&nbsp; But this “ambitchousness”, really it’s been my work to see and practice - better discernment. Both of my daughters have the full channel of judgement, 18/58. Tallulah has the 18.2 as well as her conscious Jupiter, with the 58.1 as her conscious moon. Maddex has the 18.1 in her unconscious south node, with the 58.6 as her conscious earth. 18.2 is my conscious Saturn. Lol what a placement and experience we have had together…&nbsp; Where Tallulah is like the boots on the ground and discernment is such an innate beautiful thing to witness in her, she sees peoples limitations intrinsically, and can be motivated to support her friends like a mother hen… that guilt motivation when correct is so moving to me. And where Maddie is the observer of this movie in her environment, where she sits on the roof, I can totally see that in her, and has most certainly made decisions via her own motivations and feeling cognition to move away or toward a particular person or environment.&nbsp; And I… well I myself have been learning where to be less judgey, bitchy, more discerning, to support them both, and others when given the opportunity.&nbsp; Tallulah is totally a picker 😆 we all have been to some extend, not so much Maddie; and it makes sense being in the roof lol, but Tallulah for sure. She was the go to in the house if anyone had a blemish that needed picking. We even bought her proper picking tools, and her boyfriend at one time bought her a faux skin zit popper thing where the goo would come out of this fake skin, like slime or putty? Idk it was a bit much to me but hilarious because she absolutely loved it.&nbsp; So picking; picking can be endearing and for a touch person, which I am, Tallulah is outer vision, and Maddie feeling, but for my touch it does feel at times like a form of love. This Taste of mine. I'm open to constructive, compassionate healthy criticism, but don't judge me. To gently guide me, or course correct me when I’m being overly critical, overly pumped up in my ego, or just plain nit-picky. It can really get out of hand if we're not practicing awareness and healthy discernment. Nitpicking can turn into contempt and projectile blaming or shaming, it can become denial of others needs out of some sort of spite. Ambition that turns into competition in the not self. Expecting others to be or act like you. I have to say though I’ve never felt I was in competition with my partners, if anything I’d get disappointed with their lack of ambition, or even lack of seeing how I was trying to empower them to do better for themselves… and my excuse has often been because I see so much in them. I only ever wanted to empower them to be the best version of themselves. I realize now with Human Design just how terrible that is for a projector to do to those they love. It caused more pain than pleasure, that’s for sure. Sometimes it was warranted and invited, others, not so much. The bitch in me recognizes where I was in fact a big part of the problem as well.&nbsp; It has been for me to see whom and where my empowerment is needed and wanted. Because I can see the need, but if it’s not wanted, well then it’s just for me to see… and really, I like myself better when I’m not this bitchy woman that holds such high expectations of herself and others. I like practicing discernment versus inserting myself where I’m not valued or appreciated or needed or wanted! I’m thankful it’s conscious at least, though at times I still slip. It’s just yet another opportunity, as I see it, to practice compassion for myself and others. "To work on what's been spoilt"... it is a 'terminal disease', this process only goes away when I die.&nbsp; It’s also been something of a practice to humble myself, (my Uranus 14.6) to realize I know nothing if I don’t get out of my head load of expectations and into the present. It’s where I’ve learned to meet people where they are - instead of transferring into guilt to fix something that maybe doesn’t need fixing at all. It’s also where I’ve seen how what I often need can also be what others need; and that is simply someone to hold space for where they are, to figure it out themselves… because I almost always can figure it out myself as well. Sometimes we just need a witness. So to see the need for empowerment, and instead of “shoulding” or “coulding” on someone, to just sit with them… physically or proverbially, to allow them to be where they are because to be witnessed in and of itself can and has created the transformation they needed while in my aura. That’s where the beauty of being me has been most rewarding.&nbsp; Yet, I am this ambitious woman, and I do still love a man that is also ambitious. I value friends and a lover that support my ambitions… and I practice refraining from judging myself or others for having less ambition than I. I mean it makes sense having this big ego with 51 thrice… I am unique, as are they. It's not a competition.&nbsp; I’ve also been in positions of complete loss of ambition. Total and utter lack of motivation, no ego willpower to do diddly squat. And I’ve learned to not judge myself for being there, too. But gosh had that taken a LOT out of me, to submit to that place of acceptance. I’ve been ambitious most of my adult life. Some of it due to absolute choicelessness. Being a single mother, then becoming a wife and mother of 4, then starting a business and running a household, then when crisis hits I would just roll with the punches, ambitious was my middle name! But when crisis hits, and then yet another crisis, one after another… life, my spirit, my heart said No more.. the call (and the fall) to surrender. To let it all go was like prying each finger from the ledge of a cliff to which there is no sight of a bottom but you know if you don’t let go you’ll surely loose willpower to hold on at some point anyway, and only cause more damage, pain, and suffering to yourself, and everyone involved… the fall was inevitable. The surrender was truly choiceless.&nbsp; To let go and not judge yourself or worry what others may think or say about you, the projections of disappointment in devastating degrees… no choice said the voice in my head and heart. ‘Let go’ became a mantra… when a family member voices their distaste in my choices; let it go. When the business falls apart; let it go. When I could no longer corral my daughters under my wing to keep them safe; let it go. When my husband was locked up and our life was utterly shattered by an indictment, everything falling apart; let it go. When I was in crisis and we were all faced with the global pandemic, bills racking up, bitterness for lack of recognition and support; let it go. Just let it aaaalllll gooooo… &nbsp; You learn to be a lot less judgy when you have nothing. You learn to become quite humble and grateful for the smallest of things… you learn to really listen to your body, because had I not, I would surely have had a heart attack or a stroke in that environment. I knew I would die if I didn’t let it all go, and get out of there.&nbsp; The beauty of ambition and judgement when correct is seeing through this lens of discernment. It’s listening to myself when no one else would. It’s trusting that these subtle cues, signs and signals are for me and me alone, and of course I’m happy to share what I see when invited, but only then. It’s trusting my inner authority as my divine powerful magnetic compass; to or away from crisis or chaos. And to recognition that there was ambition and determination, even in my surrender... There is willpower to survive letting go of everything to start anew.&nbsp; I go where I’m wanted and needed now. I sit with the other, right where they are. If I ever see that bitch rearing her head I check myself because… who am I to judge when I too have been a complete idiot before. And I'll most definitely be an idiot again. And because I have risen out of so much shock and pain, I know that what I needed most was just someone to hold me and love me right where I was. Because there is this intrinsic knowing within me, I have the answers I need, and being witnessed does something for us, to us. It’s an allowance or an acceptance thing. Safety. Support. That universal loving presence within me that just says this is ok… you are still loved and worthy of being loved, empowered, and you will, too, get back up again.&nbsp; It’s now one way I see my willpower as a gift, this perfected form for integration as a blessing, and discernment as an irreplaceable awareness to my strategy and authority.&nbsp; I hope you enjoyed this story, I could say so much more to this but I’ll leave it for now. May we practice less bitchiness and practice more discernment - during these nodes, and moving forward.&nbsp; Love you, choose wisely 💖🙏🏽 Gate 18 - The Gate of CorrectionChannel - Judgment - A design of InsatiabilityHarmonic Gate - 58: The JoyousCenter - SpleenCircuit - UnderstandingAstrologic Position - 03° 52' 30"♎️&nbsp; - 09° 30' 00"♎️&nbsp;Taste, the focus of judgment on dissatisfaction. This gate is where we receive our deepest conditioning from our parents. In the I'Ching this gate is referred to as Work on what has been spoilt. It is through this gate that a woman is conditioned by her Father, and where a man is conditioned by his Mother. The Oedipus / Electra Gate. This isn't to say that this is a negative. It is the gate of essential learning and as a result is the gate of Correction. This is where we learn generationally, from parent to child. The 18th gate activated in a chart is an indication that there&nbsp;has been deep conditioning from the parent. It is through this 'imprinting' that a certain standard has been established. These conditioned standards will form the basis for comparison and will be applied to everything; lovers, work, oneself, and the reality despite circumstances will always invite the potential of Correction. The very vitality of this channel denies resignation, and the need to correct, to improve is a life long process. Without the dissatisfaction &nbsp;and the drive for perfection which hones the critical skills, &nbsp;there is no understanding. Here is where the potential of Taste is born.WORK ON WHAT HAS BEEN SPOILTTHE VIGILANCE AND DETERMINATION TO UPHOLD AND DEFEND BASIC AND FUNDAMENTAL HUMAN RIGHTS Line 6 - Buddhahood -&nbsp;♎️&nbsp;08° 33' 45" - 09° 30' 00"The perfected form.Mars 🔼 The Buddha state of the eternal child and the energy to find new horizons to avoid stasis. The potential of the perfected form through correction. Moon 🔽 The mundane application of the above. The ability to tap public opinion and share methodology. The potential to share the values of the correction with others. Line 5 - Therapy&nbsp;♎️&nbsp;07° 37' 30" - 08° 33' 45"The strength to recognize a problem and to accept that it is beyond one's power to solve it alone.Saturn 🔼 The &nbsp;wisdom &nbsp;to &nbsp;both &nbsp;seek &nbsp;and &nbsp;provide &nbsp;guidance.&nbsp;The &nbsp;potential &nbsp;for &nbsp;correction &nbsp;and judgment through relationships. The &nbsp;mental &nbsp;patient. &nbsp;Chronic &nbsp;instability &nbsp;and &nbsp;potential &nbsp;madness.&nbsp;Venus 🔽 Where relationships cannot assist in correction the potential of mental instability.&nbsp; Line 4 - The Incompetent&nbsp;♎️&nbsp;06° 41' 15" - 07° 37' 30"Difficulties as a result of inadequacies that cannot be resolved because of inadequacies.Earth 🔼 Given this negative position, survival through suffering. The inability to correct and its potential for suffering.Mercury 🔽 Indecision and anxiety and no escape from misfortune. The demands of correction and its potential to generate anxiety. Line 3 - The Zealot&nbsp;♎️&nbsp;05° 45' 00" - 06° 41' 15"The energetic obsession to clean house.Neptune 🔼 The dissolution of old forms at an acceptable price. An obsession with correction and its critical potential.Jupiter 🔽 Rigid judgmentation that creates as many problems as it solves. An obsession with correction that does not bring satisfaction. Line 2 - Terminal Disease♎️&nbsp;04° 48' 45" - 05° 45' 00"The recognition that what has been spoilt is irreversible.Pluto 🔼 Acceptance and strength derived from a faith in spiritual regeneration. The acceptance that there is no potential for correction.Moon 🔽 The futile raging against the wind. The refusal to accept that there is no potential for correction. Line 1 - Conservatism♎️&nbsp;03° 52' 30" - 04° 48' 45” The adherence to traditional patterns despite and/or in spite of changing circumstances.Earth 🔼 Gradual modification to avoid eventual upheaval. The potential to correct through gradual modification of judgments.Jupiter 🔽 The Patriarch whose rigidity guarantees deterioration. The potential to refuse to correct.Can you support my ambitions with a coffee, or book? https://buymeacoffee.com/katiehumandesign<figure id="figure-plpcr98o7dm3osdcmh" class=""><img id="plpcr98o7dm3osdcmh" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/24HuXWqeBI0zyGpxzdgqYsdYbpgrGdhkcOthxjdB39DSpEobBQjwhQvYjpqud271.jpg" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-lg md:rounded-xl lg:rounded-2xl" style="aspect-ratio: 3/2; object-position: 15% 35%;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="3:2" data-caption="" data-positionx="15%" data-positiony="35%" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/24HuXWqeBI0zyGpxzdgqYsdYbpgrGdhkcOthxjdB39DSpEobBQjwhQvYjpqud271.jpg" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 3/2; object-position: 15% 35%;"></figure>

Gate 18 Line 2, Ambition & The Bitch

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Gate 28 - Preponderance of the Great. Excess, line 1 - Preparation. Part of the knowing circuit and the channel of Struggle; the design of Stubbornness. Harmonic with ‘The Fighter’. 38; Opposition. I had the channel of struggle during my Saturn return. I see where I definitely struggled during that time, but it also served as a fuel and a major catalyst for change in my life. I got in a big ugly fight with my bf at the time, ended up with two black eyes (there’s more to that story, I’ll share another time maybe) but it led me to really looking at this pattern to why I kept finding myself in situations, especially with men, where my inner authority was being challenged, and my health was also at the forefront during that time. I did this complete 180 in my life and after a lot of struggling to master my new habits I broke though to a side of me I’d not experienced since I was a child, if ever at all! The fight for the individual spirit to live and be as itself. The struggle to be one’s own authority. And what’s the point of it all, what meaning do we give to our lives? The fear of death is no stranger to all of us, we face it at one time or another in our lives, death is inevitable, and, what will you find inside as your greatness to Live for? To the individual channel of struggle it can literally look like a fight for one’s life. I have a dear friend that possesses this channel and we joke because she’s often tripping and stubbing a toe or something awkward in her body. 6th line design can be like that. When it comes to fighting for what is right in her life though, and embracing her unique struggle; well it’s been a trial and error but she shines beautifully doing it. Shes amazing! She’s been a big helper on my own journey, I just want to acknowledge that in her, you know who you are and I love you to bits! This week we have the sun in gate 28. Notice if you are feeling some sort of way about what makes your life worth living. Do you sense fear of death or struggle to find your unique ‘thing’ worth fighting for? Have you had a human design reading? We’re all designed to live something out like none other. Not one of us are the same but we all have to fight the currents in the maya. It is a fight at times. To break free from homogenization is no small feat! To be yourself in a world of puppet masters and sheep is worth the fighting, for everyone! But/and, do you know yourself? To know thyself and put proverbial blinders on to anything else that goes against your inner current. That’s it. I mean, we can argue that putting our heads in the sand is not serving, or is it? There’s something in you worth fighting for. You are worth fighting for. To love yourself by stubbornly pushing away anything not in alignment with who you are. No submission! Careful out there this week because we can also often see power struggles and accidents with this energy.<h3> From the Rave iChing: “The Spleen is the home of our oldest and only existential awareness, our body consciousness, the 'gut' feeling. The 28th gate is a conceptualizing gate, the first step of any awareness process. The potential of intuition is to know in the now, whether it is of value to struggle or not. Where the mechanical fighter will not listen, the game player must. The fear of this gate is of death. The challenge is life itself. The development of intuitional potential is based on trial and error.</h3><h3> Being a part of the Knowing Circuit, this is a deeply individual process. The risks are always taken alone and so are the consequences. The individual in society is the key to direction, but that role is fraught with difficulties. Any change in direction is the direct result of Mutation, the Format (3/ 60) of this circuit (which just left us with this shift) If the mutation is going to be successful and replace the old with the new, the Tribe and the Collective must be convinced of its value.</h3><h3> The knower who does not know what knowing to fight for, or how to fight for it, will face enormous resistance.” ~ Ra Uru Hu</h3> "Put blinders on to those things that conspire to hold you back, especially the ones in your own head." ~ Meryl Streep Doubt the Doubt!<figure id="figure-xroo9u62wm2pgeguy"><img id="xroo9u62wm2pgeguy" src="https://cdn.durable.co/covers/31IBIv61zuowIKaeNenxaoqsH1plJnUwGuT9bcrl3PRjsbqMiw3sMBS2mifkNIxL.jpg" alt="two women talking while looking at laptop computer" title="two women talking while looking at laptop computer" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-lg md:rounded-xl lg:rounded-2xl selected" style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: 55% 25%;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="16:9" data-caption="" data-positionx="55%" data-positiony="25%" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/covers/31IBIv61zuowIKaeNenxaoqsH1plJnUwGuT9bcrl3PRjsbqMiw3sMBS2mifkNIxL.jpg" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: 55% 25%;" data-mce-selected="1"></figure><h3> Have fun, be safe! Love yourself, choose wisely &nbsp;</h3><h3>Love, Katy&nbsp;</h3>

Gate 28 Human Design

Because if you‟re somebody who is influenced by 5th or 6th Tone (Design) there are going to be advantages to brain function for you, but the advantages to brain function are simply opening up possibilities to be more sensitized to what in fact will be the emotional expression of it. It will be expressed through the emotional system.These are beings that will have to feel their way through. And that gift of being able to feel their way through is also going to allow them to discern who can be with them, and who can be with them is so important. It‟s so important for all of us. It is one of the most fundamental things to recognize about the nature of being. The Sun/Earth on the Design side says to us here is our personal responsibility. We have to align our form to what is correct for it. Period.Then you look at the Nodes and they say that what we‟re going to do is protect you against outside conditioning, just operate correctly. The moment that you understand that, is the moment you will see that we‟re designed always to have to deal with the other until the end. It is just simply the way that it is. And to understand that one can no longer afford to be homogenized in this life. One can‟t.I had an interesting conversation in a parking lot today as I was picking up my kids. Somebody stuck their head in my window and said, “You know, you‟re very anti-social.” I said, “Yeah, I live in a bubble.” They said, “You know, aren‟t you afraid,” it was an interesting use of words, “aren‟t you afraid that you‟re cutting yourself off from humanity?” And I said, “Exactly.” It‟s something to understand about our vulnerability to the other and that discernment is so much a part of our lives, to be so clear about who belongs in your life. The discernment of that is not something that the mind is capable of; it is not. It doesn‟t have enough information; can‟t have enough information. It can only guess. But the form, your form knows. It will not naturally align itself to a force that is incorrect for it if it is operating correctly.I was talking to you earlier about my understanding of the mutating Solar Plexus as having its own kind of immune capacity, being able to protect itself, and at the same time being open. My assumption is that the melding process in the rave consciousness will demand that. In other words, it will demand the ability to literally open up the neural environment to the other, that‟s enormously risky. You can see very clearly that this is called communal defense. It says something about the importance of the development in humans of the Solar Plexus potential. Again, this is not about people who have a defined Solar Plexus. Please understand that, because they may or may not, in the context of what is the architecture underneath.You can‟t just say to any emotional being there lies this opportunity for them to enhance their emotional system. In fact, they may be somebody who is outer vision, or somebody who is security, or whatever, and have nothing to do with that in terms of the architecture. It has to be related. The moment that where you see it is that you can only see it in the Tone. If it happens to be the serendipity, as an example, that somebody who has a 6th Tone also has a defined emotional system on the surface, so be it. But please understand that if you have a 5th or 6th Tone that‟s specifically pointing towards the emotional system, pointing towards the Solar Plexus, pointing towards the potential of enhancing Solar Plexus awareness. And it means that any of the Internal functions that you‟re going to align yourself to, that they‟re really going to transform the Solar plexus, much more, as I said, than they would brain function. They‟re really going to open up the possibility of the Solar Plexus.I have this thing about the eyes going weak in rave children. My assumption is that if you have 5th and 6th Tone and you operate correctly and you follow your Internal diet and you‟re operating through your strategy, my assumption is that your eyes will get weaker, funny enough. I just assume that will be a by-product of any kind of enhancement of the potential of the Solar plexus is going to lead to a diminishment of the potential of physical vision. I think that is something that will be interesting for us to be able to look for because there are so many keys that we can have with the knowledge. So, here this communal defense is something that is really important, and important to keep in mind.The other thing is skin, the sensitivity that is there; this whole business of touch. Skin fascinates me. It fascinates me because this is our envelope, or it appears to be our envelope. Obviously, we have this auric envelope. But the way in which our illusion operates is that this is the package. We‟re all held together inside of this mysterious package, this mysterious suit. The thing for me about the epidermis, the outer layer of the skin, is how incredibly sensitive it is to information. It‟s incredibly sensitive to information. At the deepest mystical level, the 6th Tone is the architecture of the acceptance of form. It is the acceptance of being in form. It‟s not an easy thing.You look at the New Age and how many people want to get out. You look at the religions of India where you have always had a vast population. Everything is about get out and come back next time, if there is a next time for them. This is the potential to be able to embrace the form principle. But obviously, it is more. It seems to me that—they have this expression about people who have the touch. To be healed—Jesus putting his hands on somebody. It is clear to me that this communal defense through the skin, this touch, this is a capacity that is a potential of the Solar Plexus system. That is, a potential of the Solar Plexus system to heal through the surface, to realign through physical contact.I think it has a great deal to do with the way in which the ultimate rave Penta is going to be able to provide itself through medical services—it‟s like there is all sorts of wisdom that we know as acupuncture, but there is also acupressure. There is Reiki; there are all these methodologies that exist that point very clearly to a capacity to be able to enhance the well-being of a human being through particular positions on the body.It is clear to me that in 6th Tone architecture that this understanding of the body is something that is not a mental understanding, but an inherent function; in other words, a capacity to provide both defense and offense for the collective aura. So it makes this attribute an attribute that‟s quite fascinating…….So, herein lies the potential, again through the correctness of the Internal coupled with Strategy to take 5th and 6th Tone beings and again to give them a new orientation. In other words, to give them an orientation related to the emotional system, whether they happen to be on the surface emotional or not; because, in fact, that truly is not the question. One is simply there to live the awareness and the other is there to experience the awareness, both of which result in the same game. It‟s the same thing.~Ra Uru Hu<figure id="figure-frbs2isxvm70paph7"><img id="frbs2isxvm70paph7" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/2bqrexzAEr55b3we8Xt73Sj78XP6uyfhz2TkMe3PeTFspz5kKCWF84HaSOS5EVZ8.jpg" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-lg md:rounded-xl lg:rounded-2xl" style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: center center;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="16:9" data-caption="" data-positionX="undefined" data-positionY="undefined" data-fullWidth="false"/></figure>

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