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At some point we singles have to face that, as we approach our older years, leaving behind old flames, relationships, marriage, dealing with divorce, and reenter the dating world, it's not a cake walk. It can be hard, scary, downright terrifying. We all have these wounds and memories we carry with another, about the other, these experiences mold us in one shape or form. The memories can haunt us and create a distortion of reality. Sharing our memories with another is something we can really only do within a safe container… and, to think we will meet someone who doesn’t have baggage is a joke.&nbsp;And yet how do we process this information? It’s in how we open or not to what is happening now that we grow and evolve, or get stuck in a repetitive cycle of …WTF. You can be diligently doing the inner work, but at some point it really comes down to recognition and whether it's reciprocal, or not.&nbsp;In these deeply personal relationship dynamics, we have to check our own egos when it comes to our partners past. What they loved about someone else, may not be present in the relationship… yet. Especially when it comes to intimacy, where years spent with someone else, at the end of that experience we can kind of make this overall calculation or summary of what the experience was for you. But its been my seeing that some things really just don't make sense, until they do. We tend to forget the pain of loving that person in order to try again… or, sometimes we try again while still remembering the pain, and that serves as a reminder, sign posts, what we call red or yellow, and green flags.&nbsp;One could ask “How much healing has been done around this wound?” And when it resurfaces, do you see growth in your own reactions? I ask, "When are we going to love ourselves, stop this incessant need to "heal", instead, simply to be, allow, accept? If anything, &nbsp;can we hold space for another to feel??&nbsp;"How you respond to conflict is a direct reflection of how you meet your own pain, needs, insecurities"… do you agree with that statement? And the thing is, we really can not know if all the work we’ve done to love and accept ourselves is working, or sticking - without reentering "The Arena”.&nbsp;<figure id="figure-ca504iectpm91ogtcn" data-full-width=""><img id="ca504iectpm91ogtcn" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/18TLHIeqpnUyVHsdEg2YUO3Z3tepttzdOCqKcjxv6flgxfROhTSZlHiC774xSTdF.png" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-lg md:rounded-xl lg:rounded-2xl" style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: undefined undefined;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="16:9" data-caption="- Theodore Roosevelt " data-positionx="undefined" data-positiony="undefined" data-fullwidth="true" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/18TLHIeqpnUyVHsdEg2YUO3Z3tepttzdOCqKcjxv6flgxfROhTSZlHiC774xSTdF.png" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: undefined undefined;"><figcaption class="body-normal text-gray-500 mt-2">- Theodore Roosevelt</figcaption></figure>I have a client that shared this quote with me a few months ago. It was right about the time I was deciding whether I was ready to reenter a few different arenas in life; "life school". One of these wonderings was on whether I am really ready to give dating a chance again. I have a girlfriend that has been encouraging me to, she knows that I have a lot of love to give, but also a lot of trepidation around it for varying personal reasons, harsh experiences... but she’s been an encouragement, none the less, it just hasn’t felt like time… but it had been weighing on my heart and mind.&nbsp;Then my client shared this quote. He was talking about creating a business and a life that he sees is possible for me, if I dare to try. He senses my heart, I know it, I feel it from him, this beautiful sense of recognition that my soul so craves... we such a wonderful energy exchange going on that I deeply value and appreciate. It's been a real gift to experience from him, this sweet 91 year old man. He knows a thing or two and has observed and supported many couples in relationships in some of the service he provided during his years. For the HD enthusiasts - he's a 1/3 cross of service, which so happens to be my Uranus opposition, though in a 4/6 profile. To is has felt synchronistic doesn't quite cut it, but you may get my drift.&nbsp;Dare to suck, as another friend and teacher put it. The quote actually brought deep pain releasing tears to my eyes, and filled my heart with recognition in some way. Like an awareness, a remembrance that … yes, I want this love in my life, I’ve been through so many battles and being in the wrong place, wrong people, the pain of not being seen, not even seeing myself, and the distortion it all caused. I know I deserve it, love… and I know what I am capable of giving, more than I’ve ever been. &nbsp;And… “You gotta pay to play”, so to speak… and so, I did it. I reentered the dating scene, via an app.&nbsp;In order to love you must be willing to love. And how incredibly vulnerable it is to put yourself out there with the possibility that it’s not met with reciprocity?&nbsp;What I’ve found so far, in reflection and projection mirrored, is that yes, my inner work is revealing itself to me. I’ve also been shown where I have room for growth and cultivation of where I’m limited, acceptance in that as well as opportunities to stretch and strengthen these areas where I am weak… because I do have weaknesses. I’m not perfect… &nbsp;I’m also aware that a lot of what I’m feeling or experiencing is not an isolated experience. I’m not alone in feeling the incredible grief of past love done array. I’m not alone in the experience of feeling unheard or unseen, misunderstood, or simply recognizing where I’m an idiot, and have reactions to things that I don’t particularly feel are in alignment with who I am now, or who I see I want to be now and in the future.&nbsp;It’s in both men and women that are experiencing these results, when dating again after heartbreak, loss, and rebuilding ourselves from the inside, out. The process of rebirthing the lover within, the self we were before the pain… we really are never the same.&nbsp;And that really is something we must recognize.&nbsp;People change us, our experiences with others change who we once were. Hopefully what they lead to is an awareness of where our self love needs tending, where we have space to grow, but also where we are convicted in our needs, and what I call negotiables and non-negotiables. Where we do recognize and love ourselves...No relationship is perfect for no two people are perfect, but they can find the balance that works for them and that can be their unique version of perfect. When two imperfect people come together with the same ideas of what love can be, or look like, feel like… what a gift! And yet there is bound to be these wounds of what it didn’t look like, what stood in the way of that love to grow, what hurt us, where we went wrong or the other left a mark - they’re bound to come up.&nbsp;It’s in … can we recognize this is a vulnerable space that we touched on? And can we talk it through? For clarity, for the sake of not transferring a wound to the other? So we can avoid this in the future? For the benefit of what we have developed to flourish in richer, more nourishing soil? Weeding out the likes and dislikes with someone you feel aligned with is not easy to do… we’re going to hurt each other, it’s inevitable. But how do we recoil, or regenerate to course correct, and meet the other in a way that reconnects that initial spark? And not only reconnect the spark but help it grow, to stoke that fire… it all takes vulnerability, whether it’s acknowledged, or not. It's hard.&nbsp;You are so brave for trying! We need to acknowledge how brave you are.. do you see that in you?&nbsp;It takes being so incredibly vulnerable. And this is what we fear the most, yet crave the most simultaneously - to be seen in our nakedness, and still loved and accepted as we are. Thats not just our named bodies. This so so much deeper than the skin.&nbsp;To love and be loved even with all our scars and battle wounds.&nbsp;To meet someone that sees our beauty, despite our flaws.&nbsp;That when we do re-enter The Arena that we find that it isn’t a wasted effort, but a learning and growing experience, with perhaps lots of twists and turns, a few curve balls, hopefully none that leave you with a black eye, or sent to the bench. Maybe some timeouts and regrouping, team work makes the dream work, yeah?&nbsp;We all want to find a person that sees us and wants the same as we do… sameness really is way sexier than it gets credit for, especially as we age and mature.We’ve all have our pain. Whose face is not “marred by dust and sweat and blood”??&nbsp;The question I find being asking, perhaps unconsciously, perhaps not; is who can love us, despite these things… who can we talk about these pains and grievances with, and develop that deep, deep connection the human spirit so craves? To thrive in love, not fear or suffer or worry.&nbsp;What is it that creates a deep sense of security, for both involved?&nbsp;It will look different for each of us as not one of us is the same… and doesn’t that just add to the experience of excitement, confusion, vulnerability, etc…&nbsp;There is so much I could touch on in this quote alone. About life, success or failure, the 3rd line way… so much trial and error for this heretic… If you know, you know... I hope you don't give up, I hope you know you are worthy of a healthy, safe love. I know I’m meant to get it, sooner or later. Maybe in my sharing you see a bit of yourself? Maybe in this quote you are inspired to try again? I don’t know, but I’m somewhat empty of reason or strategy in my sharing as of late except to get it out of me - that which I sense others may suffer in silence about… what we fear to say that needs to be said.&nbsp;I was talking with a friend and I said something that surprised myself but it’s true. Men not only need men to hold space for one another to unpack the pain and grief, and women don’t only need women to support in this way as well… but women need men that can hold this sacred space for them, and men need us women as well to offer the same. IN relationships, its a must. To be able to get to this space where we can support each others growth, release the pain of past hurts, and move forward, ushering in this more compassionate and loving future. The grief that is here for the lack thereof brings up such deep sadness, big tears. It’s so rare to find someone willing and able… I hope you find that person for you. I hope the same for me, too.&nbsp;Even if it means learning a few hard lessons of truth along the 3rd line way... I’m here for it. My heart was born to be a lover, and a lover I will be, I am. And when the right man arrives, the right time, all the things it takes... I’m trusting that it'll all just work out as it's meant to be.&nbsp;You know? It really is just what it is… until it isn’t.&nbsp;It’s ok to not be ok, it’s ok to hurt over love losses. It’s ok to be wounded AND still find someone that will see all of you and love you anyways. Do you dare to enter The Arena? The journey isn’t necessarily for everyone… it’s ok. It really is ok… it’s all perfectly imperfect. Anyway...I love you, I really do. Despite all odds.&nbsp;TBC...Love yourself, choose wisely&nbsp;🙏🏽💔❤️‍🩹❤️🕊️ - Katy&nbsp;

"The Arena"

If you look around on any given social media platform, you’re going find a lot of information right now, or really anytime, but especially right now since we have a lot of very interesting transits going on, along with an eclipse season. So we’re hearing a lot about the planets, and what they are doing right now.&nbsp;You’ll be noticing that some astrologers will be saying "now is a great time to plant seeds of intention and go for it, Aries in Neptune go for your goals, fulfill your dreams," blah blah blah.And on the other end, you’ll hear astrologers saying "no it’s not the time to plant seeds, this is a time to let go and internally, digest what is coming up for you and recognize where you’re feeling pulled this way or that way" and more blah blah.The thing is, it could be this way or that way. And isn’t it just the way life is, the juxtaposition, this and that of a collective experience in the Maya?You could be going through a deeply cleansing and beautiful, powerful time, sensing your self love - while your neighbor is going through a terrifying, emotional turbulence transition, and beating themselves up about it. &nbsp;No one can tell you what the future holds, they can give you the scenarios and their own unique interpretation of what is happening… But this is the beauty of Human Design and what Inner Authority is all about. And why Human Design, the Science of Differentiation, Mechanics of the Maya, this inner authority - is the only way. That doesn’t give you any kind of “security“ in knowing what the future will look like. But what it does do is it gives you Inner Trust. &nbsp;An inner peace and quiet, inside. It helps you let go of the worry of the future, what is going on, where are we going, etc, etc. It helps you let go of what everyone else is saying, thinking, all these opinions of what this transition is all about, and puts the power in you. It puts the power in You.<blockquote>It puts the power in You.</blockquote><span style="font-family: inherit; font-size: calc(16px * var(--body-fontSize, 1)); font-weight: inherit; background-color: rgba(249,250,251,var(--tw-bg-opacity));" data-mce-style="font-family: inherit; font-size: calc(16px * var(--body-fontSize, 1)); font-weight: inherit; background-color: rgba(249,250,251,var(--tw-bg-opacity));">We’re all students, and teachers, we’ve got our heretics. We’ve got our role model. We’ve got our trial and error adapters, we’ve got our investigators, we’ve got our naturals and our networkers…. And some of them will resonate with us, some of them are what we consider our fractal. But ultimately any good teacher is leading you to yourself, leading you to your inner truth.We don’t need people telling us what to do, or where we’re being taken, we don’t need a hero, a savior, we don’t need angels to come down from the sky and save us, we don’t need the aliens to invade and take us away. &nbsp;What we need is to really tap into that inner authority, and fuck the rest!What is true for you? &nbsp;Only you know. Differentiate. Be unique. Forget the past as a form or direction, forget the future and its possibilities, or probabilities, unless that’s of course, correct for you to speculate, thank you design of the thinkers, design of opinions, design of abstraction. I don’t want to discredit your role. But yeah, yada yada yada, and blah blah blah, let go of your fucking mind and just be here now. Emotional beings, where you at in your wave? Splenic, what do you need in this now moment? Ego, authority, what would feel empowering to you? And on and on your type your strategy, all of it is so unique to you.What do you need?&nbsp;Now in this moment, what is your body calling for? &nbsp;What do you Fear, what would bring you Hope, what do you Desire, what leaves you feeling Guilty that you need to somehow show up differently? What do you Fear going without? This will be unique to you of course!This eclipse season is showing you where you’re weak, where you’re strong, where you need to harness your power, where you need to let go of power, where is the resistance, where is there ease, where can we be sensible, practical, or perhaps you’re meant to just fucking leave, or lead, and try something new.&nbsp;Again, this is personal, and yet again it’s laughable because it isn’t personal at all.&nbsp;These last few days have been quite confusing, probably the last couple weeks really, all this Pisces energy, which is very transpersonal very karmic, very collective, and we’re moving into all this Aries energy, which is so personal, what are we identifying with? What is yours, and what is for you to put down? Stop carrying other people‘s loads.As a transpersonal being, I see it like a Karmic mirror being held up to me and I’m seeing myself in ways that are both terrifying, but also so empowering. So beautiful yet so weak, disruptive, yet so quiet, and still. It's also so jam-packed with a shocking punch, and totally choiceless. I’m being reminded that I love myself. I am seeing the “work“ that I’ve done on myself, simply by trusting my inner authority, and following my inner convictions play out. I’m seeing where the times I did not trust my inner authority - chaos, turbulence, or a crisis in one way shape or form.&nbsp;I’m seeing in others where they’re, perhaps due to a lack the awareness of how the program holds us along, these planets that just usher us through like cattle being sold, being pulled along this line of - no choice. Some have learned surrender to it, while others... to see the resistance and there is this pain that follows.I’m not saying that these different astrologers are wrong, I am saying is its this AND that, and the best authority for you to be listening to is Yourself. You have got to trust yourself. You have to trust yourself.&nbsp;If it feels like you should go do that thing. Go do that thing. If it feels like you should sit with whatever it is coming up for you, then sit and rest.&nbsp;The body will not lie. Listen, get some space alone and deeply listen to yourself. There is no better guru.I don’t know about you, but I’m tired of hearing what everybody else has to say and I just wanna hear my own inner authority, goddamn it. LOL Everybody just shut up will ya?&nbsp;I partly joke, I do enjoy others outer authority, and I do resonate with some of the things I have read, but right now with everything going on all I personally want is to hear my own inner voice. How about that? We all need to deeply hear our own inner voice.&nbsp;Aries season… Neptune moving into Aries... what a ride we’re on. I'll do a write up on what I see this ushering in, sometime soon... but for now, I leave it at this. Do you know how to hear your inner authority?&nbsp;Love yourself, choose wisely 🦅💯🕊️💝🙏🏽Gotta love what comes out of me on 5th line days... Heres a song to go with the mood. Photo credit above of the horses by my talented Uncle Steve. You can check out more of his amazing photography <a data-mce-href="https://www.flickr.com/photos/184659251@N03/albums/with/72177720318847065" href="https://www.flickr.com/photos/184659251@N03/albums/with/72177720318847065" target="_blank" rel="noopener">here on Flickr</a>&nbsp;Sometimes I write to myself... Enjoy, or not. lol&nbsp;<figure id="figure-4nrv85rd8m8tmll3l" class=""><iframe id="4nrv85rd8m8tmll3l" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/QulBUdp-SAQ" class="w-full bg-gray-100 rounded-lg md:rounded-xl lg:rounded-2xl" style="aspect-ratio: 16/9;" allowfullscreen="" data-url="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QulBUdp-SAQ" data-corners="default" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/QulBUdp-SAQ" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 16/9;"></iframe></figure>

Neutrino Riff

I'm going to try a different approach.&nbsp;To life, to love of myself and of others... but also to how I share.&nbsp;I'm not really here to think so much... It's clear to me as it can cause me anxiety and frustration, sometimes a headache... But my awareness of - this undefined head &amp; ajna of mine... Well, theres a lot that flows through - and some of it I'm sure does not matter, while other thoughts may. I'm also not here to judge that, so in honor of my 3rd lines, let's fuck around, as they say, and find out what may become of this, if anything... shall we?Right now, in this very now moment I am experiencing a sense of ...anticipation. Excitement. Mixed with a gentle touch of contentment and liberation. This sensation of calm interlaced with the vast wildnes of the mystery, the unknown. Is it fear and trepidation? I often do see how excitement of the unknown can resemble fear... It's like giddiness, mixed with a lot of unanswered questions. Nervousness, laced with a sense of wonder. Anxiety can also be curiosity. Yeah, if that makes any sense. I finf that the more I just let it ride and not think about it, the answer just comes... all is revealed in time. It's in the trusting of how my body feels about this or that, that I get there, or not. And when I get there is not determined by anything I can control. Mind can not dictate when, anothers authority can not make it appear, nothing comes from pushing an agenda. It's quite a practice of patience and, yeah, trust.&nbsp;I see the transitions at play with in the collective, like this separation occurring... like a slow and long drawn out peeling off of an old bandaid. Does it hurt? Only when we let ourselves be pushed around, or pulled into anothers trip, and what is love? "Baby dont hurt me," No really, what is love ... is it a surrender to choicelessness, a submission? It may be agonizing, or it can be a dance in and of itself. That's where I'm drawn more and more to deeply listening to inner authority, it truly can save us all. But if we're not solid in our unique decision making process, wow, it can be like a twister. When we let the opinions of others sway us, finding ourselves judging where we "think" we should be, according to what, says whom? Or and we discerning porperly,how it "should" be done? how this "should" go down, etc. Ugh. Opinions, Judgements... Sun &amp; Earth in 17/18 polarity, there you are... can we watch, and not judge it? Stay centered in our unique awareness? The challenge, at times!I can see myself, and others, moving away from old ways of resolving conflicts. Adults, relearning how to communicate in order to clearly and authentically relate, versus the old tactics that - whether they worked or not - were engrained in us as children, often unconsciously via our conditioning. And the layers there... Recognition of whats not working, and trying out new things, approaches, resolution strategies - in order to better serve each individuals needs within unions, bargains, business ventures, etc. The work IS in the awareness.&nbsp;It's like a call to grow the fuck up, on a whole other level. Ok, Pluto conjunct the moon today sends waves and billows of wind - it's like this subtle, fantasmic pressure to experience our fantasies? Define them? Live them out, or let them go? Do you find yourself weeding out what works, how does it work, what does it require in order to work, perhaps only to reveal where we are still blinded? The veils upon us with Venus and Neptune, lifted, or blurred? Are we feeling our exposure to the elements even further? Our innocence, while simultaneously inserting its universal coolness of love - can leave us either chasing for that arousing shock, or a bit... disappointed? Expecting a more personal experience? Can you spread this sensational awareness past what is in front of you? -&nbsp; Do you see the interconnectedness of all things? Are you able to find what love really is, interlacing itself within it all?This sounds like such a deep call for tantric awareness, is what my Jupiter senses within my body. And with Jupiter in Gemini, gate 35, there is no better time to practice mantras, meditation, breath work and the art of observation. Saturn, conjunct the North Node, demanding self discipline in how we view, or judge society, how we process big emotions. To be a "support to those in times of crisis but only when unavoidable"... LOL Yeah... Are we learning that hermitting is sometimes healthier for the mind and spirit, as the solution to further conflicts, turbulence, acceptance? Compassion is a muscle that requires excercising and strengthening. We may find our circles getting smaller, taking more alone time to get clear on what it is we feel about this or that. Compassion is easier to achieve and maintain with the correct amount of distance... For some that may mean taking a large step back. For others, it could mean retreating for moments of solitude to receive their clarity, and return to the tribe. Let this happen and let it be what it is. It's not personal. It never is... though we can feel it deeply in our vehicle at times. The opportunity to experience a steady flow of compassionate speaking and listening is available to us, if we're open to experiment with it. What disappoints, redirects. What triggers, opens a new door, or another level of the same story... this house of stories, these walls of mirrors... can you see the 1 and only within each face and name and experience? Do you recognise your Divinity yet?&nbsp;All these questions, and really none of it matters, it's simply me, expressing what I "see"... hoping you feel a little more seen, a little less alone. What a beautiful canvas of scenery it is. What a masterpiece of love, you are. Despite what "they may say", shine. Shine this light you've diligently uncovered, let go of what remains as a prison - be it psycholigically, emotionally, physically, does it imprison your spirit? Let it go... Trust in your inner flow.&nbsp;What is precision but ones opinion of what any given thing "should" look like? Precision, without self awareness, is simply perfecting someone elses directions. This is all fine and dandy in a cooking class, or any class for that matter, but in life? In the real world, where we are all striving to be ourselves and live out our uniqueness - Precision is a self awareness and self love so devoted to its truth that life has no choice but to deliver according to the masterful art of ones Mechanics. May you remember this love that is there within you, and experience your signature...<figure id="figure-3xvs2by7jjm8nlbc8e"><img id="3xvs2by7jjm8nlbc8e" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/boB9mxXtnXoFxecnvWEx1szSB8w3RCW40SeXvJQiBKFBJJw9hDpRtUejWfofp8qX.jpg" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-lg md:rounded-xl lg:rounded-2xl" style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: center center;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="16:9" data-caption="" data-positionx="undefined" data-positiony="undefined" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/boB9mxXtnXoFxecnvWEx1szSB8w3RCW40SeXvJQiBKFBJJw9hDpRtUejWfofp8qX.jpg" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: center center;"></figure>I feel myself letting go, whilst simultaneously being pulled along an invisible thread, a center?.. This tether between the void and the mundane. Don’t mind me, as I’ll just be getting weirder and weirder... and somehow it’s all so exciting, while filled entirely of mystery... and in some way, I’m held in that. In some way, it’s ok. It’s gotta be ok. I mean, you have to be ok with You. You know? Being - and ok with the Self that Is. Really ok...Until next time, Katy&nbsp;

Inner Flow...

So this week we’re looking at where we are fooling ourselves, waiting for the right timing, waiting for clarity through this long drawn out wave we have collectively with Jupiter still in 35, meeting the north node and Saturn. Where are you resisting change? Is it correct? How does it feel to follow your inner authority, despite these transits killing us this way or that? Are you capable? Where is the conflict and what is the resolution? Jupiter is expansion so it’s wise to utilize this time to see where we can perhaps stretch and grow… with Uranus also questioning if we know or not how to truly let our wisdom shine or not. The 23 isn’t always expressing its knowing with words, in my seeing… its concepts that are applied with inner authority as the guide.. what’s your weirdness and are you able to articulate or exude that into your life somehow?&nbsp; We may be also still experiencing this adrenalized pressure to find our place, our people, mars in 53 wants to goooo, but only to find and sit with those that are in resonance to our trajectories, to our tribal goals and ambitions. Do we have the correct 42s support that implementation? Or is it running you rampant, chasing your tail? Careful to not let this energy exhaust you… I’ve felt it myself, getting my ass in gear… for what?&nbsp; We can say it’s for the love of the body. Getting our butts in shape, our form in greater alignment, however that transpired for you. What is correct for one is not necessarily correct for the other. But it does ask us to look at our “vehicular care”, and the innocence, the expiration of these forms is no secret when we look out at the world and what’s happening with our food and water supplies, our health in general.&nbsp; The sun is conjunct Neptune today, veils being lifted on where we’re hiding our love for life? Where are we not opening up to this universal love principle, and how can we possibly expand on the love for humanity as a whole? It starts with self love, always, and then it just ripples out. Take care of you, your body, what’s do you need right now to feel good in your body?&nbsp; Venus and mercury are talking to you about these opinions, what are your opinions of how to better love yourself, your vehicle, and life as a whole? The rest thing about opinions is we all have them, but none of them matter if they’re not in alignment to your unique design. So go with your inner truth on this. Opinions are like assholes, everybody has one, but nobody wants to listen to it. So take care of your own asshole. What is love to you? That’s it. That’s the opinion that matters. All the while, we still have Pluto in 41, hello, for the long haul … churning up the butter in the collective with that emotional transitoriness… what do we reply n desire to experience in this life? We can easily be pulled this way in that, confused by the direction to take. What I love about the Earth in 46 right now, the love of the body, is that yes it is a direction and some of us don’t have that in our design, but human design reminds us all the time that the vehicle is the life. The body is the way. And so remembering, remembering that this is your life! Do you know your inner authority?&nbsp; Lastly, today, the moon in 14 just supports this unique individual direction even further… so yeah, is it correct? Only you know! Whomever you end up bumping into, collaborating with, tribing it up with, make it count, make sure it’s correct. It’s the only way, truly love yourself.&nbsp; Love your body, love yourself, love your people, open up to this universal loving principle, choose wisely.&nbsp;Gate 25 - from the Rave iChing&nbsp;Right Angle Cross of the Vessel of LoveGodhead - Michael - Quarter of Initiation, the Realm of AlcyoneTheme: Purpose fulfilled through MindMystical Theme: The Witness ReturnsGate 36 &lt; Gate 25 &gt; Gate 17Innocence - Gate of the Spirit of the Self - The Spiritual Warrior&nbsp;<blockquote>The perfection of action through uncontrived and spontaneous nature. To love everything equally. Triumph and survival enrich the spirit and result in the wonder of being.&nbsp;</blockquote>"This Gate is part of the Channel of Initiation, A Design of Needing to be First, linking the G Center (Gate 25) to the Ego Center (Gate 51). Gate 25 is part of the Individual (Centering) Circuit with the keynote of empowerment.The love of Gate 25 flows out of fully accepting and living surrendered to one's form. A gate of the higher self, its pivotal role is to turn people toward individuation. Our innocence is not designed to bring love into the world in any specific way, but rather to love without discrimination. Those who carry this gate hold the potential, and empower others with the potential, to love life and everything in it equally. A flower can be loved as profoundly as a human.This quality of love is often projected as cool or cold but is neither. The mystical potential of this love is transcendent and universal, and our spirit innocence is always being tested. We have the capacity to meet these initiations from life like a spiritual warrior, fired up and ready to compete for our spirit (our individuality) no matter what the circumstance. Then, when the warrior or "fool" of Gate 51 prods us to leap into the void, or when we meet life's initiating challenges, we will be able to land on our feet and deepen our innocence into a wisdom that can empower others on their own journey. We may emerge a bit wounded from such initiations, but our ultimate triumph and survival enriches our spirit and the spirit of those around us. The result is that we are alive with the wonder, the love, of being." Loving you!Katy Wise&nbsp;❣️

Neutrino Weather Gate 25

On March 14, 2:55 am EST / March 13, 2025, 11:55 pm PST, there is a Full Moon Lunar Eclipse at 23 degrees Virgo that will kick off March’s eclipse season. It will be visible in North and South America, parts of Africa, the Pacific, and Europe. During this event, the Moon will appear red, often referred to as a "Blood Moon," as it passes through Earth's shadow.<figure id="figure-06kkx4gsvm87n7u6n"><iframe id="06kkx4gsvm87n7u6n" class="w-full bg-gray-100 h-80 rounded-lg md:rounded-xl lg:rounded-2xl" style="aspect-ratio: 16/9;" allowfullscreen="" data-url="<iframe width=" height="401" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/-KKwMhdFzqg" title="March 2025 Total Lunar Eclipse: Shadow View (UTC).mp4" frameborder="0" data-corners="default" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/-KKwMhdFzqg" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 16/9;"></iframe></figure>In this data visualization, the Moon moves from right to left, passing through Earth's shadow and leaving in its wake an eclipse diagram with the times (in UTC) at various stages of the eclipse. Credit: NASA’s Scientific Visualization Studio<h2>What does it all mean?&nbsp;</h2>Are you feeling more intense? Perhaps your emotions are close to the surface? This transit has the potential to bring the energy of Crisis – Conflict – Change. The cosmic energy serves up the potential of deep emotional experiences that may be turbulent – or not.Let's break it down...&nbsp;First of all, we have the sun in the last degrees of Pisces, along with the moon at its polarity, Virgo. In Human Design we are looking at the sun in gate 36 and the moon will be in gate 6 when the eclipse is at its apex. What that says to me is - we are in a week (or more) of clearing out what we have deciphered or siphoned out from last weeks individual process. Yes, it's more of that clearing out what no longer is serving our growth as individuals. Or is it? It is, if it is correct. We don't say that in the HD community simply for the joke of it all, though it is a bit of a joke. As many of us still will feel and go through a transformation or mutation, even with awareness. This highlights yet another layer of our choicelessness. More-so, what I like to try and focus on with all the choicelessness involved - is the children that are coming in. It's the what "the Program" is pumping out. Just like you and I were born to be unique, the program at play Now is ushering in children with these specific codes and mechanisms... it's not where we are going so much as where we are being taken (or Not). As well, it's what the children being born NOW will be programmed with. Fascinating stuff, really. Anyway, moving on.Gate 36 is the Gate of Crisis, the darkening of the light. Any one who has this in their chart in one way or another has witnessed or gone through what some consider a dark night of the soul type of experience. Well, since we have had gate 36 in action within the Program for some time now, especially when we had Neptune in 36 the past few years, and now it's where the North Node has been and will be for quite some time, the whole world is being faced with this Darkening of the Light moment. And now, it's here where the sun is during this rare celestial event. Crisis, and the fear of inadequacy. Who will overcome their fears, and who will shrink from this otherwise crippling sense or lack of preparedness? Do you have healthy coping skills and habits in play? What do you do for yourself in times of feeling inadequate?&nbsp;<figure id="figure-y3ie4t08cm892inhb"><img id="y3ie4t08cm892inhb" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/32sAJ5sDUYCFHKPoSELGocsbhW0q7Yl9YHQ1bVndHLFlcWaYVUUz3FqBB4OJ2dgB.png" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-lg md:rounded-xl lg:rounded-2xl" style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: center center;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="16:9" data-caption="North Node in Gate 36 - Also where the sun is this week. The Gate of Crisis, an emotional fear of Inadequacy" data-positionx="undefined" data-positiony="undefined" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/32sAJ5sDUYCFHKPoSELGocsbhW0q7Yl9YHQ1bVndHLFlcWaYVUUz3FqBB4OJ2dgB.png" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: center center;"><figcaption class="body-normal text-gray-500 mt-2">North Node in Gate 36 - Also where the sun is this week. The Gate of Crisis, an emotional fear of Inadequacy</figcaption></figure> The South Node has been in gate 6 - The gate of Conflict, ever since the NN moved into 36, as they are a polarity. This is actually a tribal gate, and connected to gate 59 in the sacral it creates the channel of mating. Without the 59 it can continue to seek out the 59 for the experience of breaking down barriers to achieve bonds, or not. This Gate 6 though, Conflict is friction. Friction is conflict. We need friction for growth, whether that be to create a child in the literal act of mating and procreation, or in creating the breeding ground internally or within the tribe for production and evolution. Friction supports defense, and what other than reproduction creates a strong defense? "Make more, produce more, so our bloodline can survive, so we have a strong defense." This can also create a lot of conflict. Conflict of interests, conflict in how to nurture the needs, conflict in openness to intimacy or not. Timing, all those things that go into play with making or creating bonds. With the south node here, and the moon highlighting these themes, we can possibly experience finally letting go of these fears, or conflicts for good. Some may not let go without experiencing this friction within their relationships first. Perhaps we can more consciously create healthier bonds, recognizing where we may shy away from potential conflicts perceived from the mind due to past pains in relating with others. Maybe we get to move forward with a little more compassion for ourselves and others... We shall see. We all have our own unique timing and trajectories, and yet with this awareness,, really, anything could happen. Stupid before, stupid after... I know. lol With open, compassionate communication I believe anythings possible. &nbsp;&nbsp;<figure id="figure-0wovpht55m892jwt8"><img id="0wovpht55m892jwt8" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/38z6VsEtTgUewRPIwH9Ns6KdrGq8XSan5jZkh4Z1kRtexnzgqt1l3wp6l81KN62G.png" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-lg md:rounded-xl lg:rounded-2xl" style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: center center;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="16:9" data-caption="South Node in Gate 6 - Also where the moon will be during this eclipse. The Gate of Conflict, an emotional fear of Intimacy." data-positionx="undefined" data-positiony="undefined" data-fullwidth="false" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/38z6VsEtTgUewRPIwH9Ns6KdrGq8XSan5jZkh4Z1kRtexnzgqt1l3wp6l81KN62G.png" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: center center;"><figcaption class="body-normal text-gray-500 mt-2">South Node in Gate 6 - Also where the moon will be during this eclipse. The Gate of Conflict, an emotional fear of Intimacy.</figcaption></figure>I mentioned above this Pisces/Virgo polarity, we can see how crisis and conflict permeate the air. Not only our tribal settings, but societal conversations are riddled with them, conflicts of opinions, conflicts in our bonds or a lack thereof. And the crisis that can come from that. From political debates to spiritual warfare, the story is as old as time, it seems, and yet we are living smack dab in the middle of a major global transition. If you followed me back in the early days of my career I shared that this is a spiritual battle for your mind, a battle of wits, of sorts. Humans as a species are going through a deeply, deeply mutative process. This is the time to break free and create a more self sustainable lifestyle. Tribes redefining what it means to be tribal, being led by individual mutation, inner authority, not this outer stimulation of puppet masters pumping fear into the masses to herd us like cattle to slaughter. Fuck that. This is a time for knowing where your authority lies, within, and following ones own conviction. This mutation... we haven't had a mutation since the 1700's with the discovery of Uranus. And what's coming is far more individual that we have ever experienced in our lifetime. You have to see it. It's in the Program, and in seeing the program, you can see the game that is afoot. To see and to know the game. You have to know the game to win. You can't hate the players or you've already been defeated. It is in this seeing -how life is puppeteered- &nbsp;not simply by social media and big Pharma, big tech, or mega mind billionaires, but this Program in the Sky. It's incredibly humbling and brilliant. The showcase of mastery in the sky that none of us can escape from... its death to the old ways of relating and creating a tribal defense. And what does the tribe need to defend itself from anyway? Extinction. Do you see it?? It is the question. Do you know how to listen to your inner authority? It is the only way.When you see the program at play, it takes the air of mysticism out of the whole "agenda" somewhat, but the show itself is incredible. It's incredible! That conflict, it no longer has to have such a grip on your mind. It either is, or it isn't. And the darkness, well.. it doesn't seize to exist, but with eyes on its existence it can soften the blow of any given fears of inadequacy, lend us this strange perhaps even eery sense of comfort in the darker times. In Human Design we talk a lot about how this journey is an individual experience, and how melancholy is something quite familiar to those on this path... melancholy can easily turn into depression when the mind finds itself needing a reason to feel any given way, as well, depression will surely ensue when we fight what is or try to change the waves that come, instead of practicing this grace thats available when we truly just surrender to it...&nbsp; "The time is ripe for the perfect trigger or crisis to emerge and catapult you into something brand new. The Kabbalists call this the “Correction” that comes in to nudge you in the direction of growth and out of the status quo. So, conflict “out there” may lead to a period of examining the root of conflict “in here.” This could lead to an emotional crisis without the clarity and awareness about what action to take."This is inexperience becoming experience and it may bring with it fear – or not.The only thing that endures is change. You learn through constant change and continually move through cycles of high and low and back again. This rollercoaster ride can be very exciting or deeply overwhelming.Consider that sometimes things come to head to give you the opportunity to notice how you deal with crisis, conflict or change. It’s an opportunity to witness how you move from inexperience to experience and evolve, grow, and become wiser. This movement gives you your frequency … and your frequency determines how you experience your humanity, your compassion, and your life.Are you ready for a new experience?<blockquote>When the world grows dark, your inner light is given definition. - Ruth Brennan</blockquote>The mind wants, the mind thinks and expects, creates recipes and ideas, opinions, blah blah blah... but the LIFE is in the flesh, and this body has its own unique needs. Life is what is right in front of us. The mind can become captured with this and that, poison the airways with all this fucking chatter, and pumping out problems to later deliver solutions you never needed in the first place. It's insanity. Or, are you truly paying attention? This transformation that is possible now... it’s one person at a time. I've said this since before I knew HD, awakening is an inside job. You can't can't can't (hello Jupiter in 35) awaken the masses and do it justice. It really is one 1 being at a time. And of course, now that Jupiter is making his presence known in this thread, 35 says "Progress can Not exist in a vacuum" either, so, we really are being blessed with an opportunity here. We need each other, the right others in our lives, to live out our crosses, to share our resources, to come together to create something new, sustainable, innovating the tribe and in better support of our unique individual needs.&nbsp;Growth is hard. Change sometimes really sucks. It can hurt, and it's tiring, agonizing, scary, we fear our own inadequacy, will we make the cut, are we good enough, etc etc... but it's not about whether we're good enough or not. It's really not. It's about whether or not we are listening to our own unique inner wisdom, and is it correct for us to make a change? To have this experience?&nbsp;No one is going to judge you as harshly as you will yourself. No ones opinion fucking matters, is you love yourself. No one can "believe" you into, or out of - anything - if it isn't correct for you. You get to be the Guru now, you get to be the authority, no one else. It's not even about value. It's about seeing yourself and loving yourself as you are. That's IT! Sorry there isn't a snazzy prize at the other side. No take home party gift bag... but you get this deep, deep presence within yourself and from seeing how funny people are and life is when you wake up to the whole shitshow as complete and utter nonsense! Hopefully you laugh at that, but it’s ok if you cry, too. It's a fucking mess.&nbsp;Moving on, what else does this lunar eclipse offer us at this time? Well - according to astrology dot com, "This eclipse is important because it officially ushers in the Pisces/Virgo eclipse themes that will play out throughout the year. Both Pisces and Virgo are signs that are connected to service and sacrifice, but they do it in different ways. Pisces, as mutable water, with a symbol of two fish swimming in opposite directions, is as fluid as a zodiac archetype can be. Pisces is ruled by the lucky planet Jupiter in traditional astrology, and the planet of illusions Neptune, in modern astrology. Pisces energy is creative, compassionate, but sometimes escapist and self-sacrificing. Virgo, as a mutable earth sign, with the symbol The Virgin, is the archetype of an adaptable builder. Virgo is ruled by the communication planet, Mercury, and its energy is meticulous, analytical, but sometimes overly critical. With the Virgo full moon eclipse happening during Pisces season (full moons are always in the sign opposite the sign the sun is in at the time), this eclipse will require the balancing of both the Pisces and Virgo energy, but with an eclipse twist."&nbsp;As I see it, we can look forward to finding our inner balance with these energies. I have personally been experiencing these push/pull dynamics much of my life, as pisces is my design moon, and virgo is my personality rising. How I see this is a need for balancing how much I give and take, how much time I spend on myself versus time on projects, in service, on my physical health as well as in social settings. This has also manifested as a need for balance in boundaries and in finding practical solutions versus being overly delusional, or avoidant in matters of family, friendships, work, love interests, you name it. It's a work in progress, this balancing act I must juggle. If we look at it through the lens of Libra, which happens to be my discipline and my law, we see that if one scale is even remotely more or less it tips the scales off. So it's important we not only know where the proverbial lines are for us uniquely, but in knowing how to identify these unique boundaries we each intrinsically have been given via our time of birth. It's been somewhat of a life journey for me, you could say. Finding and identifying these boundaries. I've found myself, multiple times, bumping into the boundaries. And let me tell you, sometimes bumping into others boundaries, or my own before they've been identified -has created quite a lot conflict and crisis.&nbsp;How do we begin to know? Where do we find what works best fro each of us individually? By experimenting, a lot. And a human design bodygraph analysis can really help along the path of experimentation. This is a very validating tool for adults, but truly it's the most supportive in teaching our children to have a greater chance of success for survival. We begin by recognizing who we are, and who we are not. And this is for some a life’s journey, I mean it has been for me, for sure. And, we've been given an incredible gift of insight to this very path with the Human Design bodygraph. I mean, read my bio and you'll get a glimpse of what I'm talking about. With Pluto in Aquarius the boundaries will only become more and more blurred. Now is no better time than ever to really get clear in whom we are, and whom we are not. This is where I really love to play... As a Clarion, I am here to show you this very thing. To get clear on whom You are, to identify these unique boundaries and a beautifully simplistic set of instructions to really harnessing your inner sanctum... Would you like to set a time to explore these things with me? Let's get you clear and precise mapping so you can walk confidently into your aligned future. I'll be waiting for you, hands open.&nbsp;To receive a more intimate and personally accurate understanding of how this transit may affect you, I invite you to <a data-mce-href="https://calendly.com/kathrynwise/personal-guidance" href="https://calendly.com/kathrynwise/personal-guidance" target="_blank" rel="noopener">my calendar</a> to schedule a guidance session, let's get you dialed in.<blockquote>“Truth fears nothing but concealment.” ~ Chinese Proverb</blockquote>Love Yourself, Choose Wisely - Katy 🌻

March 13th Lunar Eclipse

Let's start out our weekly view with the Sun in 22. The left ear... "This is where we hear, or not, the gate of Attentiveness. All individuality is acoustic in nature. The 57th gate is the Right ear, operates in the now through the whole intuitive process, where the 22nd gate works through the emotional system and its wave. It's picking up all sorts of information, but one simply can not process all the information at once. what that does mean is that you can hear whatever you want to hear depending on where you are in your wave. And then the next day you might hear what you didnt want to hear, or you may hear more of what you like to hear because suddenly it comes back to you. If you put it to your right ear, you hear everything in the now, compressed. So the 22nd gate is the gate of attentiveness, but its an attentiveness that opereates best over time, and thats why that this stream of emoting in the individual process is rooted to what we call romance. We saw through the 39 and its teasing and the 55 and its fickleness that there is a building of passion that works in the individual process... That can not operate if there is early consumation. In other words, in order for individuality to acheive waht is called romance there has to be a wave building passion. And the passion is based on what you dont get, not what you get. The individual process is inherently melancholic, which means that all aspects of individuality operate in a chemistry between sadness which is a creative environment, and happiness, which is an external, productive environment." - Ra Uru Hu&nbsp;Combined with the Jupiter in Gemini gate 35 and the North Node in Pisces, gate 36, also a manifesting channel of transitoriness, and Venus in gate 21, Aries, the Huntress/Hunter... well, we may be seeking the Queen or King at the other end, the 45. And with the South node in 6, Virgo, will it be a conflict or diplomatic decision? Neptune either veiling or revealing our innocence, this universal law of love, a principle, it is. Are we loosing our own sense of innocence? Working to protect those that we love, our children, communities, this exchange of power is going on, it’s undeniable. Transitions, you can see them everywhere, especially with our wealth distribution and political quests.&nbsp;So Gate 22 asks who is worth sharing our individual depth with, who will listen, who's worth listening to? It's a joke because it’s a design of a social being, but it’s moody, and totally individual. It's highly acoustic also, so its often removed from being social due to its sensitivity of such acoustics, sounds, not all heard with the naked ear (ever heard electricity in the air? or lights buzzing? this is the acoustics I'm talking about. To the individual circuitry, sounds can really annoy, or provoke, agitate, cause "disgrace", hence why we are often the most "weird" and least social. It's also why we can often be the most tolerant. If we're not around the right people or environment, we're often seen, at the very least, as this anti-social being.&nbsp;In the not self, Anger can become the expression, with 12/22, Disgrace... this a sharp tongue, one that can cut the other deeply like a crack of a whip. Like a quick hot knife through butter. The sting of an angry 12/22 is something that can be felt to the core of ones being... those acoustics, not just a rattle, but a quake. Especially with a manifestor channel, the impact can be detrimental if not waiting out their wave... it's why we want our manifestors at peace, not only to hopefully soften any blow that may come from this anti-social space in their wave, but also to because, well, when a manifestor is at peace? The whole world around them can be as well...it's felt. At least this has been my experience. This goes for generators with a manifestor channel as well. Both my dad and one of my elder brothers had/has this channel. Growing up with this energy in the home was one of a moody and deeply emotional wave. It has taught me much, in hindsight... It's also been something for me to see, how my dad was always such a deep feeler, how he would share his emotions with us, either gracefully or not. And how my brother, how he could touch me deeply when he did feel comfortable sharing with me, how they have made such an incredible impact on my own moods and awareness. It's all in this channel of the social being, or not. May we be careful, patient and graceful with one another this week, and beyond, eh?&nbsp;The Earth in gate 47 can serve as a good balancer, if not possibly pull us further down with its oppressive gravity. It’s really meant for us to see, to weigh, but not to make decisions from... and challenging as that may be. Especially if the Opinions with Mercury in gate 17 feed this oppressiveness as well. Not necessarily a good combo, less we remember to not make decisions from our minds concepts or opinions of others.&nbsp;Mars is applying heated pressure, burning at our biscuits to start that new project already, begin the new process. We can't really begin a new process with out the old ones finishing, if there is anything in the way of that... well, it could be revealed to you at this time. Without the 42, we could simply feel this adrenalized pressure like a hot air balloons exhaust pushing us into some sort of direction, but no place to land it... careful not to find yourself running in circles, chasing ones own tail. Also, can we make sure we don’t accidentally find ourselves brooding for no apparent or healthy reason? Slipping into bitterness or anger could be easy this week... along with the risk of depression. Remember to self love it up, check in with your inner authority for whether to speak with someone - does it feel correct or not? May we try to keep the mind at bay with its uninvited opinions or oppressions.&nbsp;Lastly, Uranus is (still) challenging the freaks and geniuses to share their messages, let your freak flag fly I guess, why not! Who will listen, who will join your cause? The hunt is on... play safe. Maybe you'll bud a new romance this week? If so, may the grace overrunneth in both of your favor. Much love, above all, love yourself, choose wisely 💋 - KatyFrom the Rave iChing ⬇️Gate 22 - The Pisces Gate of Openness - &nbsp;GRACE - A QUALITY OF BEHAVIOUR BEST SUITED IN HANDLING MUNDANE AND TRIVIAL SITUATIONS.&nbsp;Channel - 12-22 Openness The design of the social being&nbsp;Harmonic Gate - 12 - StandstillCenter - Solar Plexus&nbsp;Circuit - Knowing&nbsp;"The potential to realize the spirit becomes the possibility to share that spirit with others. The role of the individual is incomplete without social skills. On the Mental plane through the 43rd gate, the individual has the conceptual capacity to communicate its insight to others. The task is made more difficult by its strangeness. The Channel of Openness provides the individual with the gift for public access. The possibility of this gate is to empower others with the individual emotion. It is the quality of the emotional spirit which will condition how receptive the collective will be to the individual awareness. The Knowing process requires a certain amount of social interaction to dis-seminate its individuality towards the goal of Mutation. Grace is where the spirit of the knower is released in a wave. The Sense of Hearing is associated with the Awareness possibility gates of the Knowing Circuit. The right Ear, the existential ear through the 57th gate; the Inner Ear, the inner voice of the individual through the 43rd gate; the left Ear is through Grace. What you hear with your left Ear, you hear in a Wave! If you listen to the telephone with the left Ear, you will only hear the good or bad of the hope &amp; pain wave, the rest will come later."&nbsp; - Ra Uru Hu &nbsp;<figure id="figure-xklbnh4u5pm81yo4zj" data-full-width=""><img id="xklbnh4u5pm81yo4zj" src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/7eG6zOfCJPF1QB6VaYV1W1IH9dsXCeTDWLu1U8rKXncKKJ78f5XqjNn9I3PU12Mq.png" alt="" title="" class="object-cover bg-gray-100 rounded-lg md:rounded-xl lg:rounded-2xl" style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: center center;" data-corners="default" data-aspect="16:9" data-caption="" data-positionx="undefined" data-positiony="undefined" data-fullwidth="true" data-mce-src="https://cdn.durable.co/blocks/7eG6zOfCJPF1QB6VaYV1W1IH9dsXCeTDWLu1U8rKXncKKJ78f5XqjNn9I3PU12Mq.png" data-mce-style="aspect-ratio: 16/9; object-position: center center;"></figure> &nbsp;

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